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差不多冬至 一早一晚還是有雨
當初的堅持 現已令你很懷疑 很懷疑
你最尾等到 只有這枯枝

苦戀幾多次 悉心栽種全力灌注
所得竟不如 別個後輩收成時
這一次你真的很介意

• 但見旁人談情何引誘 問到何時葡萄先熟透
  你要靜候 再靜候 就算失收 始終要守

日後 儘量別教今天的淚白流
留低 擊傷你的石頭 從錯誤裡吸收
也許 豐收 月份尚未到你也得接受
或者要到你將愛釀成醇酒 時機先至熟透

應該怎麼愛 可惜書裡從沒記載 終於摸出來
但歲月卻不回來 不回來 錯過了春天 可會再花開

一千種戀愛 一些需要情淚灌溉
枯毀的溫柔 在最後會長回來
錯的愛 乃必經的配菜

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想想天的一邊 亦有個某某 在等候
一心只等葡萄熟透 嚐杯酒

別讓 寂寞害你傷得一夜白頭
仍得不需要的自由 和最耀眼傷口
我知 日後 路上或沒有更美的邂逅
但當你智慧都蘊釀成紅酒
仍可一醉自救 誰都心酸過 那個沒有

So stressed… for stupid things in the office.
Can people stop bothering me and do their own job?! So annoying.
I want to go to holiday but no $$ and gut to leave Hong Kong. I miss my friend a lot. I want to fly to somewhere, have a cup of coffee and talk to my friends.
I have too many things to rush recently. Cannot afford to sit down and talk. Is it the life that I am supposed to have for the rest of my life? Just keep myself busy in order not to be fired?

I wish someone will listen to me. I hope someone have time to listen to my bullshit.

I am stressed again!!!!!!! Cant believe that I get stressed in this job!!!!
Sleeping problem and skin problem.. all come back again….

I want to go travelling a lot but so no $$. I want to escape. I want to go to somewhere that no one can bother me but I cant. Schedule has been fixed. I want to go to Belgium to see my good friend although he may probably not seeing any female apart from his gf now.. I want to go to KL to have a dinner with my friend. Just a peaceful dinner, business free. I want to go to Paris to finish my museum tour. I want to fly away..from Hong Kong.. to somewhere else.. somewhere that I can have cultural shock. In the past, I never hesitate on any of my travel plan but now I am because of the budget.

I have too many things to worry about. Too many problems that I cannot resolve.

Since the market turns down, i dont want to go to the office everyday for shit work and at the same time, afraid to be fired. Due to this kind of complicated mood, I think i need a holiday. Travelling needs money. Again, complicated. So I decided to redeem all my asia miles and go to Japan next month… redeem ticket and hotel. I‘m lucky to have a sister go with me so that I dont need to plan anything. That kills a few days.. and then also have 5 days to carry forward which needs to spend before 31 MAR. Jan is chinese new year so the earliest to leave HK is mid Feb… from mid Feb to Mar…. again, dont want to spend much money. Thai is not possible as it is politically not stable. Maybe Malaysia or…. stay in HK.. anyway need to check packages.

Recently Dragonair and Cathaypacific are promoting “world-pass”... likes 1 long + 1 short trip costs you less than 8000 but needs to depart before end of July 09. >.<~~~ it is cheap but no $$$..

Next article will disclose where to go in Feb 09. (to be continued)

I started to read again recently. Reason number 1- My English is getting bad. I better read some books. Reason number 2- There is no point to wear fashionable clothes but hollow inside my head. The cheapest and the most convenience way is to borrow books from public library by reservation. Reason number 3- kill time.
I have finished my interesting fictions and now start to borrow some difficult books which may help me thinking in a mature way…sth like that. One of the topic is.. what if I have cancer right now? What if I have very limited time in my life now? What am I going to do?..... The book that I am reading is .
It made me think about what I am doing now… why do I need to wait for other people everynight to be off at their work so to have dinner with me? Why I cant spend time just with myself. WHat is the priority in my life? I need to figure them out all.

If I dont need to think about money, I would like to have
1) a i-phone
2) a pair of lane crawford flat shoes
3) a prada handbag
4) a gucci name card holder
5) a frank muller watch
6) a gold tiffany bean
7) a LV belt
8) elegant office clothes

but the market is not good. Better save more money..

I told myself if nobody left a message in my hompy after my previous article, I am not going to continue becoz that means i have no reader. Now, at least i know i have an unknown Mr. P here.

The big news today is I can login to my company laptop at home finally. I forgot my wireless password so I got a cable from the office and physically plug in it. It was my dream to access to company system at home so that I dont need to work so late in the office.. I am so useless, always talk about work.

Well, then let‘s talk about other stuff. My sister is going to Europe (again!) soon. The EUR is so expensive, high inflation and I am so damn poor right now… made me dont want to buy anyth. Travelling is fun, at least I enjoy it a lot. However, too freq is not a good stuff. I just went to KL as my last trip in Aug. I better control myself. There are some TV shows about cooking. I am actually very interested on cooking but not the dishes washing part. I think if i have enough time, I can cook very well. Imaging myself cooking soup and western food with wine, so interesting. Recently I have been dreaming of having my own apartment.. $$$ but dont have gut to buy stock now.. >.<~ seems that I am going to another stage of my life soon. Last night, I have some tears at my eye corner when i think about my future.. I want to take up all the responsibility but obviously i am not able to. It is kind of frustrated but that maybe my way.. still figuring out how to deal with it. Is it simply ALL or NONE?

It has been a long time since my last article. I haven‘t write for a long time. First reason was due to the popularity of Facebook. Instead of sharing my happy and unhappy in hompy, I have done that via facebook. Now, for some reasons, I feel like I want to write again… not a note or a message but paragraphs of words to describe how I feel lately…esp. when I see Deviland is still writing everyday. It seems that someone never give up hompy no matter how famous the facebook is.

So talking about myself, after changing job, I have a happier life. I am picking up golf (actually learning), tried cooking class & floral arrangement, learned some luxury stuffs and drink a lot of coffee haha.. I also had great holiday as well. But in term of target or objectives in life, I dont have a clear direction. Receiving the news about Lehman Brother, ML and AIG today, I feel a bit stressed about my future. ai.. maybe I really need to further study. Maybe I need to be an ant again instead over-enjoying my grasshopper life~ shit. need to work hard again.. feel so bored.

and now, I am guessing… who is reading my hompy after i havent login for more than 9 months..