i think i need to take a little break with him. i nearly forgot what situation we are in. the situation tells me that what we've been doing are totally wrong. we've been going to a wrong way and a wrong direction.

it's funny! we thought we did right as long as we can escape from the problem. i reckoned i had got a stroke of luck recently but the truth tells me that i'm still being out of luck, ever.

i've never thought that i'd be still in hk on 10th August this year. it suprises me. i thought i would be in australia and be working or seeking for a job during this period.

recently, to a certain extent i think my mind has changed. i do love australia..no.. should be sydney. i think i gotta get my thinking out of what i usually thought. staying in hk isn't a bad thing because i've got my friends and my family here with me. although i've started to feel tired of my current job and life, i'm not a person who easily gives up. i'm really glad that i'm getting mature to face all difficulties including loveship, family relationship, friendship and even my health. i'm no more pessimistic. instead, i've become stronger and optimistic, with this kind of belief, i do believe myself will be getting better and better.

There's a question i wanted to ask long time ago. Why people luv to send msgs instead of giving calls? i've been trying to find out the answer but unfortunately i've found none. okay, as a friend, i welcome everyone doing so but when someone keeps sending you msgs in every minute, what does it imply? implies he/she has some sort of feelings on u and is interested in u? or just got nothing to do? i've been sick of thinking about this. it's so weird!!!!!!!  kind of weird feeling. recently, a guy has been keeping sending me msgs. crazy crazy crazy............ what does he want? i don't want to communicate with only msgs anymore. it's wasting time and money!!!!!!!!!! please!!!!!!! stop it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been crazy of me since the Cisco's project bad temper, poor selfmanagement and low EQ. Through this toughest time, i didn't lost myself but was planning to give up my current job like what i did to 903. The only reason was my health could not get adopted to the crazy life through undergoing which my biological clock was broken and violated, only 14 hours were for my work while less than 6 hours for sleeping. Yes. i did try to give up under this harsh condition. But when i think of it, perhaps it might be a chance given to learn more in the self-management balancing my health, social life and work. i do have a faith getting success at this in one day. the only question is just when it will happen. frankly speaking i really luv this job caz i got a very good work environment to learn sth that i'm hunting for. even though there're so many udps and downs through the whole processes, i hope i can insist myself till the end, at least passing next year 26 March which is about sharp 2-year for my current job.

Today is 15 July, the end of the Booth Allocation Meeting. From now on, i promise i need to contribute more to myself rather than solely paying too much attention to my work. What i'm aiming at not only getting promoted but also my whole life - balancing my life very well!!!!!!!

對任何事情，有信心就可以解決

但，對人，我真的束手無策...

好想哭.....

真的好想哭....

不解決就算﹗

讓我去流浪吧﹗

近來情緒開始不穩，返返下工都可以無端端喺度喊.......

可能知道之仔快要返過澳洲喇﹗土哥仲時時話要同我打賭，打賭我一定會喊..... 我二話不說咁同佢講，唔洗打賭喇﹗喊咗喇﹗

真係好怕離別。從少到大，都好怕好怕好怕好怕.... 記憶中喊得比較勁既

1) 3歲時由肥媽媽嗰度搬返屋企住(唔講仲以為自己係肥媽媽個女﹗)

2) 10歲既時候，肥媽媽舉家移民避債，知道冇乜可能再見嗰陣，喊咗3個月...

3) 哥哥終於由澳洲返香港。(haha.... 多舊魚)

4) 上年由澳洲返香港....... 冇辦法... 我實在太唔捨得喇﹗

我怕, 真係怕喇﹗又要再面對多一次既離別，心裡面真係好不安... 好記得之前係咁叫佢返去，依家開始有d後悔....  原來真係可以咁唔捨得....

原來很久沒有來過這裡，很想念您~

快要窒息，透不到空氣。

我...... 原來已經忘記了我是誰。

一幅畫，可以有很多的意思，但卻透徹人心。

我...... 還可以怎麼辦？

我可以再做多一點嗎？

但結果，會變嗎？

我只知道我..... 原來真的真的很無用......

即是.............. 廢柴......