I was a standby of someone before.  I suffered loneliness and sorrow.  I decided I will not be a standby anymore.  I want to find a standby for myself.  I expect he is always available for me.  I must confess I am selfish.  I'm afraid I'll suffer again.  But I discover that my standby is not as I  suppose he is always available for me, he is always available for himself only.  All I need is love and care.  It is difficult to seek from other but myself.  I'll love and care myself faithfully.....until forever.

Nobody's child

As I was slowly passing an orphan's home one day
And stopped there for a moment just to watch the children play
Alone a boy was standing and when I asked him why
He turned with eyes that could not see and he began to cry

I'm nobody's child, I'm nobody's child
Just like a flower I'm growing wild
No mummy's kisses and no daddy's smiles
Nobody wants me I'm nobody's child

People come for children and take them for their own
But they all seem to pass me and I'm left here all alone
I know they'd like to take me but when they see I'm blind
They always take some other child and I am left behind

I'm nobody's child, I'm nobody's child
Just like a flower I'm growing wild
No mummy's kisses and no daddy's smiles
Nobody wants me I'm nobody's child

No mummy's arms to hold me or soothe me when I cry
Sometimes I get so lonely here I wish that I could die
Whe I walk the streets of Heaven where all the blind can see
Then just like all the other kids there'll be a home for me

I'm nobody's child, I'm nobody's child
Just like a flower I'm growing wild
No mummy's kisses and no daddy's smiles
Nobody wants me I'm nobody's child

為了配合我的願望，果然今個星期過得好快，快到好似飛咁快，噚晚正式開學，讀埋個Last Year就收檔，唔知係唔係隔咗太耐無返學，今朝瞓醒好攰，好眼瞓。噚晚個教HR個呀sir勁流囉，本來都講廣東話，之後有三個唔知係印度定巴基嘅女仔入咗嚟，佢未轉channel囉，不過佢講明唔會就哂嗰三個巴基，有啲嘢都會用返廣東話講，個巴基就嘈嘈閉，又話人地有preception，又話唔fair，個呀sir未話你去投訴囉，嘈完一大論先教書。其實講廣東話同英文都無所謂啦，反正佢吹水多過咩，呢科唔駛考試，淨係交功課，希望唔駛咁忙啦。
仲有兩日就出發去露營喇，現在進入倒數階段......不過，而家仲係好眼瞓。

昨日開始收拾露營的行裝，初時心想三天兩夜的旅程，應該不需太多東西吧，但昨天收拾起來，背包變得沉甸甸的，又是洗澡又是洗頭又是護膚的已經一大籮，加上衣物及藥物等其他東西已佔了我的背包大半位置，別忘記還食物食具還未準備。昨晚的心情好像小學生臨旅行前的一晚，輾轉反側，整晚想著露營的事，Great!
今個星期是忙碌的星期，星期二跟嘉雯吃飯，星期三四返學，星期五睇何韻詩演唱會，星期六就出發露營喇，希望今個星期快點過，快點去玩！
現在正式向各方好友作最後召集，如有意join我們的露營旅行的話請盡快跟我聯絡，唔過夜入嚟join我地玩一日都OK0家......

啲同事成日話我地公司保健室個醫生係獸醫，但係我星期五開始病嘅時候上去攞咗啲藥，食咗一日，今朝起身已經無事喇，又可能我尋晚早瞓啦，我尋晚9點就瞓咗，一瞓就瞓到今朝9點，雖然成晚"典來典去"，但係都算充足休息啩。但係泰泰就無咁好喇，今日把聲仲唔係好得，泰泰，你快啲好返啦，如果唔係去唔到下星期個露營喔。

尋日泰泰病了，今日輪到我打敗仗，病了。究竟傷風同感冒係點分嘅呢？

泰泰尋日傷風喇，鬼咩.....呢排返早更，天未光就起身返工，夜晚又要返學，咁夜瞓，哽係會病啦。快啲好返啦........希望2007年快啲過，我地快啲讀完書，2008年就有好日子過喇........

今日去咗浸大搞Recruitment Seminar，反應一般，可能大家都知道呢啲talk只係講啲"行"嘢，反正上網都睇到，本來個Schedule係由下午兩點半講到四點鐘，完咗之後可以返屋企，因為四點鐘返到公司都成五點，所以可以早啲走，點知早咗完，三點半已經可以走得，所以要返公司，返到公司已經四點半，編完個分行走訪Schedule又夠鐘走人。

至於露營嗰度，我已經編好咗餐單，大家睇吓俾啲意見我吖..........

2006/10/28	晚餐	燒烤	豬牛雞扒、丸等等
星期六	宵夜	糖水	綠豆沙
2006/10/29	早餐	三文治	生菜、番茄、火腿、沙甸魚、沙津醬、麥飽
星期日	午餐	白汁意粉	忌廉雞湯、意粉、雜菇、罐頭三文魚、西蘭花
	晚餐	咖哩飯+菜+湯	白飯、咖哩餸包(牛、雞或蘑菇肉粒)、烚娃娃菜、粟米湯
	宵夜	糖水	喳咋/西米露/杏仁露/紅豆沙 (日清美味寶)
2006/10/30	早餐	西式早餐	多士、炒蛋、腸仔、午餐肉、茄汁豆
星期一	午餐	湯烏冬	午餐肉/五香肉丁/榨菜肉絲、烏冬